Strong Girls Club

To all of my Strong Girls who have got me here today,

As you know this has probably been the hardest and most challenging year of my life. Today marks a year since I hit my rock bottom – since the outburst, since losing friends, my emotions coming out, feeling exposed and being labelled as “crazy”.

As horrendous as I felt and as hard as each day, week, month was from that day, you all made it easier. You made it easier with your constant love, support and encouragement. Your constant ‘check-ins’, the flowers sent, plants, lovely cards, messages and holding me while I sobbed are all reasons why I am where I am today. I feel mended when I was broken. You made me find my confidence and strength when I really didn’t think I could. You made me feel beautiful when I could barely look at myself. You reassured me that I was an amazing mummy when others questioned it. You loved me when I felt unlovable. You stuck by me at the time others were turning away. You made me laugh on days I could barely smile. You made me see my worth when others tore me apart. You listened to me for many, many hours of venting in the pure torture of trying to process why what was happening was happening. You never ignored a phone call, a text or a knock at the door. You never made me feel like I’d pestered you. You put yourself in my shoes to try and understand my confusing time. You made time for me when you didn’t have it spare. You helped me find myself again when I didn’t know who I was. You made me feel understood when all I have ever felt is misunderstood. You were all my sunshine through the darkest time of my life.

I have so much to thank you all for as for the first time I am content with being misunderstood, disliked and judged by the ones that don’t matter. I have opened my eyes to see that life is about the little things. To invest time in others that appreciate it. I have learnt that you are actually in control of your own happiness and to stay positive as your positivity encourages other and that sometimes in life ignorance really is bliss as you don’t have to take on everyone’s guilt, negativity or opinions. What you choose to do is your business and unless people are happy for you their opinions are irrelevant. I am so glad I trusted my gut and had the support to do so.

So here we are 365 days later – happily married, feeling like the best possible Mummy to my GG, building my little business, knowing my friends are genuine, feeling fit rather than skinny and knowing that life is far too short to feel like that again. That said – I don’t regret any of it as it has made me who I am today.

Thank you to all of my strong girls and especially to my strong, precious little girl, my incredible daughter for all of the unconditional love and many cuddles and kisses that have made every single day amazing even when it’s been hard.

Love your slightly understood yet Misunderstood Mummy 💕

P.s. I celebrated it being a year today by purchasing a Strong Girls Club Tee for myself and G to remind myself that in life you can get through anything xxx