Here it goes, I’m finally writing my blog about life, motherhood, highs, lows, friendships (I’m all about the girl power) and family. If you’re looking for the ‘perfect’ life, then look away; however if you’re looking for a read about an honest take on all aspects of motherhood – then pour yourself a glass of bubbles and get comfy, as this mama speaks the truth and right from the heart. In fact… you may want to grab a bucket as I am a bit of a gush – you’ll either love it or hate it but sod it, here I am!

Let me start by introducing myself and telling you a little bit about me… My name is Han however some people call me anxious, crazy, or even weird (the cheek, right?!) – I’ve decided to put all of them stereotypes aside, and describe myself as misunderstood. Everyone who knows me, knows everything… I am an extremely open person and will chat to you about anything embarrassing, personal or awkward and of course I don’t judge! Mainly for the fact that I’ve probably been there too. Anything from drunken stories (trust me there’s a lot), bad first dates (and a lot of these involve alcohol), lovers tiffs, toddler tantrum stories and of course boob leakage stories when breastfeeding.

I, in no way, describe my life as perfect – despite what social media looks like, no one has the perfect life. The way I like to look at it is that people are not always comfortable in showing their insecurities, and therefore only show the best bits. I am more comfortable in sharing my imperfections through writing; I am not perfect, and I never will be, but what I am is a happy girlie (most of the time). I love searching for the positivity and silver lining in life’s hurdles and experiences whilst laughing off the bad after a moan to my best gals. I am speaking from experience after a breakdown, my girl friends are the ones that got me through it, they were my guardian angels in disguise. I have found myself again recently; and not necessarily the new me, but I have found me – if that makes sense, well I think it does?!

So I have come into 2019 feeling a much stronger person (well minus the flu- that was horrendous on another level), definitely happier and more confident in myself. I don’t feel the need to explain myself or my decisions to anyone anymore. I am a super proud mummy of a two year old girlie. My GG has given me a purpose, she is the most wonderful person in my life and even with her tantrums she inspires me every single day – I really think she saved me. I am the luckiest mummy in the world to get to watch her grow and I have the pleasure of looking after her full time. Although my career is on hold, I am a believer that you can’t get the time back and thankfully I have an extremely supportive baby daddy! He certainly has his moments but I know how lucky I am to be with him. I have the best girl friends and I can’t wait to share stories with you about them and even about how I met some of them!

I am described as thoughtful and loyal. I’ll always have my friends backs and have their best interests at heart – I love being their “middle of the night go to”- mainly because I haven’t slept since I was pregnant and G still hasn’t got the hang of this sleeping lark! I’m known to be random, funny and actually embarrassing, probably because I usually end up in ridiculous and awkward scenarios and don’t get overly embarrassed (luckily). Stories are to come don’t you worry!

I just want to finish my first post by saying whatever you do in life, do it well. This is something that I live telling myself now. Whether it be work, parenting, friendships, family or that chocolate binge we all love to have. Just do what makes you happy and put your heart and soul into it. My other point is to set realistic goals, I won’t be on here daily and certainly not by the hour. I won’t be writing over enjoying time with my girlie. I will just write when I can and be honest when I do. This isn’t an account for follows or likes, it’s simply to share and if one story makes one person feel better about themselves or even less awkward or just to have a laugh then I have achieved what I’ve set out to do… Looking forward to sharing more with you soon…

Misunderstood Mummy x x x